1st of all...exam is not done yet..and i'm more eager to go home.. =_=*
despite thinking of exams and going home thing..well..i have another thing anormal human being might have tought..
hmm..i dont if its just me..or its normal...or..anything..
to maybe...like...or..adore...or admiring sumone that is better for u...
is it normal?? hmm..
well..i'm just afraid he will be the unlucky one picked by me..
well..i've wasted part of my special space in my heart before..
and i really think it is such a waste..
and for that..i dont want to just fall again...for just anybody..
*its not that i have a love-story before tough*
but..my Mr.Anonymous still have a special history yet to be created...
a love story ...for me..* i really want to write the whole journey of it with u..and only u..*
so..before u are here in front of me..
mine for sure..without doubt..
i think..i will save this part deep inside..
only u will have the key to my heart..
for now..it is still securely locked..
and i'm giving the key..to the one and only..
only u..
well..after ALLAH, my beloved prophet..and my mak & abah <3
hmm..before u r here upon me..
i hope i am strong..to secure everything for u..
my heart n soul..
my thoughts n dreams..
i'll secure them all...
i'll try hard..
because i want u to be the SPECIAL one..
because i'm not special...
i'm too common..
theres nothing interesting maybe..
that u can find about me..
if there is..maybe its very less..
so..i'm keeping the best part of me for u..
looking upon our 1st halal date together..
when we are ours forever..eternity..
so..before that..
do not worry my Mr.Anonymous..
i will try my best..to secure the best part of me..
a very typical girl..
with yet many dreams to face..
and still have more to know..
more to learn..
more to accomplished..
if by the time u found me.
i'm still not-too-gud for u..
please dont just leave me that way..
lead me the way..
because maybe..i am waiting for u..
...to show me the light on the path..
if u are nowhere to be found..
i hope Allah fills me with everything else..
so that ur love can still be my company..
and for now..
my love ones are still my parents..
i can't live without them..
lets see if u can distract me from this great love.. =P
after all...despite sparing the special side of me for u..
i am yet far away from my Creator..
my love to my Creator..
i have lots to learn bout HIM..when i actually should be knowing Al-Khaliq very well..
because HE is my greatest love..
and my prophet...Rasullullah s.a.w...
i should be missing him more than i've missed u..
because he love us more than his life...
i am still way far from filling my heart to those Great Loves..
for that part...i am still try to fill me more..
i am trying each day..
because i am not perfect..
my thoughts sways all the time..
my beliefs is not as tough as them before..
i am weak..inside..
and my parents...
i have too much to repay them..
i am praying to Allah to give me more time for me to repay them..*which i know i could not do it*
at least..a chance to take care of them..
their love towards me is the greatest in the world..
no money can pay such greatness except Allah..
so..if u are capable of leading me to better..
if u can be my leader..in this challenging life..
if u can be my bestpal in my hardness and happiness..
just to let u know..i am preparing my self..to meet u..
yes u!
above all..i know Allah is always by my side =)
