marriage?

assalamualaikum wbt..

havent write for quite some time...due to exams-duties =)

but suddenly in business..i came across this..mariage!

its not about GATAL or being so excited in being into relation-ship..
as i always advised people around me..dont fall in love blindly..if he loves u..he will get to u legally..
well that is what always playing in my thought all while..

but suddenly..an urge of a question come to me..
*yes of course..kalau ada jodoh tu akan ada jugak*

i really thought about this..
what if...i really REALLY like this someone....
and what if i ask him to meet my parents???

what if?
will my parents agree?
will them?

ya..of course i havent been in this kinda relationship before..
and my family is not very exposed to this islamic way of approaching each other..frankly.
and so...do think they will agree?

just i thought that there will be in a way that i might have like somebody until i'm afraid i will be thinking of him too much..that i wanted the sinfyl way of thought to be a blessed way..
to be in legal way..in a way that Allah bless.

but is it just me having that urge of feeling.?
or is it too early?
when i actually just trying to learn to expose my self to the real world of a lady..or should i said muslimah?

well..to many questions..

and i dont have the answers..

yes i'm just 21..
or maybe...already 21..

if i am ready ..maybe just ready to have a halal partner..
but maybe i'm afraid that i'm not ready to have a bigger commitment.

so..should i just abandon this thought?

is it just me having this stupid thinking..
or maybe its not yet time..

wallahualam..whatever it is..may it be the best..
and may Allah guide me all the way.. amin..

*and i know my priority rite now is my exams! its a week left =/*

failure or success?

assalamualaikum wbt...

sebenarnya nak mereply mesej seorang junior yang rajin sgt lah caring pasal sy xP

hehe..tapi sebab panjang sgt...and rasa mcm seronok je nk share....rasa macam nk menulis pagi2 ni..

katanya...dia tak setuju dgn seseorang yang ckp

" kalau Allah dah takdirkan seseorang tu fail...usaha mcm mna tetap fail. tapi usaha tu Allah kira..dan akan dapat pahala.."

ini pendapat sy jelah..wallahualam

saya rasa..mungkin maksud dia..kita kena redha dgn apa yang Allah dah takdirkan kpd kita. ok. itu betul!

tapi...

sbg manusia...

kita mmg ada kemampuan untuk tahu masa depan ke?
boleh kita tgk dalam poket doraemon utk tau kita akan fail ke tak?

boleh kita guna cermin masa depan nak tgk kita ni berjaya atau tak?

rasanya..setiap orang yg beriman tahu konsep qada dan qadir..

takdir..yang memang tertulis sejak lahir..

tapi kita tahu tak apa yang Allah tulis?

kalau tahu mungkin kita bukan kita...bukan manusia..bukan hamba..

mungkin malaikat??

kalau setiap orang tahu siapa akan gagal, siapa akan berjaya..

kenapa Allah nak suruh kita tuntut ilmu?

kenapa kita kena bersaing utk jadi bangsa yang hebat?

jawap jela..ala..aku dah bodoh sgt ni! dahla..kompem tak berjaya!

KOMPEM? maksudnya pasti...

kelakar kan kita boleh pasti benda yang di luar kawalan kita..

hakikatnya..kita bukan SANG PENCIPTA yang hebat itu...

kita bukan tuhan...

kita hanya mampu usaha...

kita hanya mampu berdoa..

sebab hakikatnya lagi..kita hanyalah HAMBA!

kalau macam tu..kenapa Allah nak cakap dalam al-quran..

" Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu..melainkan kaum itu yang berusaha untuk berubah"

secara logik aqli nya...mesti Allah nk suruh kita usaha..doa...dan last but not least tawakkal.

tawakkal yg membezakan orang yang beriman dengan mereka yang tak ada iman..kan?

so...saya rasa...kita tak perlu buat urusan tuhan..bak kata kak usrah sy =)

usaha kita memang Allah kira..insyaAllah..kalau niat kita lillahi taala.

dan penghujung usaha tu..berjaya atau tak..

itu terpulang kpd Allah..

sbg pemegang tittle hamba...tak layak pun kita bersungut kalau gagal sebenarnya...

*hehe..tp ni susah la nak buat =P *

sebab Allah ckp jugak.." adakah mereka menyangka mereka sudah beriman sedangkan mereka tak diuji?...."

so..gagal itu ujian...sama ada untuk menaikkan iman..atau ujian sbg hamba yang ada iman.

nak test..iman betul ke iman plastik =D

lagi pun..tiada yg mustahil bg Allah...

cakap je 'kun fa ya kun' ...bukan setakat lulus..insyaAllah boleh distinction perfect score!

bersangka baik lah dgn Allah...

Allah kan pesan.." ....AKU bersama sangkaan hambaKU kepadaKU..."

so,..thing of goodness...and inshaAllah the goodness we shall get..

Allah tak zalim..Allah knows what best..

trust your iman..

proves that we are the true believers..

wallahualam...setakat pendapat seorang yang masih jahil dan merangkak2 lagi...kalau salah sila betulkan =)