dugaan hanya dtg utk org2 yg terpilih...insyaAllah

asslamualaikum wbt..

subhanallah...maha suci Allah yg maha berkuasa ke atas segala ketentuan hamba2Nya..termasukalh aku yg sgt kerdil dan daif ni...

insyaAllah..ada hikmah di atas semua ketentuan yg Allah jadikan utk aku..
and today..i guess Allah nk bg pahal free utk aku.. :)
not proud..but i have to say...i failed..double! for my theory and practical..
ok..for theory part..not much to say,...sbb aku tau itu salah aku..and aku tak try utk study sekuat mungkin;...so..aku deserve kegagalan tu..*insyaAllah ada hikmah yg Allah tentukan utk aku..*

but the sad part is..*astagfirullahalazim...* aku fail utk praktikal jugak..(T.T)
this is really sad..sbb mdm preeti *profesor bichem yg sgt baik* dia ckp..hardly profesor2 akan failkan students for practikal..*in my case..aku la yg hardly tu..*
hmm...basically...aku jwb je semua soalan yg profesor bg..*almost all* ..
tapi fikir2 balik...aku rasa mungkin itu satu teguran Allah kat aku...
ya..mungkin aku kutuk profesor ke...ape ke...pdn muka! maybe tula balasannya...*astaga*

seriusly...aku mmg cuak sgt utk praktikal biochem...
bkn part ditanya soalan viva tu...tp part yg kna conduct experimen tu..
tp kwn aku ckp...aku sgt bgus dlm kls praktikal..only time exam je yg aku cuak melampau...
pernah masa 2nd internal dulu...before masuk practical hall...aku siap pesan lg kat kgkwn aku ape yg kna jawab..buat macam tu..buat mcm ni...bla3...
alih2...dpt kat aku...punyela aku gelabah..*aku pown tak paham kenapa nak gelabah melampau macam tu* aku lupa almost everything..
*seriusly everything...even sequence experimen...ape yg nk buat..ape yg akan dpt utk result...nk tulis ape utk inference and observation...aku totally lost it all!*

it is that bad! =______________=*

hmm...harap sangat dalam finals exam ni aku tak kelam kabut...
dear Allah...please help me??....i am nothing without U...
and i cannot do anything without Your help...
i am so useless without Your guidance...
please dont leave me do anything on my own...even for a second..
because i may ruined my own life with my own thought and doings.....
please guide me..dear Allah...the Most gracious and the Most merciful...

ok....going to try harder..
aku tau..Allah Maha mengetahui usaha hamba2Nya.... ;)

oh..btw..class anat pg ni sgt menarik! insyaAllah apa yg aku dpt hari ni aku boleh ingat lg...Alhamdulillah ;)